I have had some very interesting things come up for me, since my last post.
When my very first subscriber unsubscribed after her reading more than 88 posts, so much came up for me. This person helped me create my blog and told me to try new ways of delivering my message every once in a while.
She said she unsubscribed because of a change in format because of my prior post of a sensual dancer.
I started to doubt myself but at the same time stuck with this process of letting go of what no longer was serving me.
I recognized that she was my teacher in learning about blogs and represented an authority figure. So when she unsubscribed I felt confused, betrayed, I was doubting myself, I felt that because this blog represents who I am, I felt rejected and hurt. I was feeling disapproved of and judged.
One post that she disapproved of and she was outta here.
So when I became fully aware of all of these old familiar patterns that I have held on to for so many years, I realized what a blessing this was because it also reconnected me with the reason I decided to start writing this blog.
I have so much to share with you to help you on your magnificent inner journey.
In the last blog I added a youtube video of a woman, a polished performer and athlete in her own right. I thought her to be amazing in what she was able to do so fluidly with such strength, in this pole dancing contest in Australia.
It was so sensual, strong, fluid and sexy. So beautiful and amazing to me. It is Sacred Divine Feminine energy.
I could not have described this to all of you if I tried in quite the same way and saw it as an incredible way to express that this too is in you waiting to flow through you and take you to places within yourself that you may never have been before?
The first time that I started belly dancing was when my teenage step daughter begged me to meet her at a belly dance class. I almost did not go because earlier that day I had a rare headache.
I napped and awakened to a phone call from my daughter pleading me to meet her. I checked into my body and realized my headache was gone. I knew this would be a perfect way to bond with her. So I went out into a sleeting storm and that night tapped into a whole new belly dance world that I had no idea existed.
I tapped into an inner fire within myself that allowed me to express this beautiful Divine Feminine energy in a way I had never known before.
I can't tell you all of what this did for my soul because it goes beyond words. To be able to move my body and express myself in this very beautiful and sensual, feminine way, helped me let go of all the lies I had ever believed, that others had told me as a child, that I choose to believe because I was a sensitive sponge that believed everything that others had told me about me.
The unconscious lies that we hold on to are what create our world around us and how we perceive it and believe what is true.
Belly dancing helped me feel so great about my body as I know it has done for so many other women as well. The Sacred Divine Feminine comes in so many beautiful shapes and sizes. No need to compare yourself. We are all beautiful and Divine.
It is a great work out and so fun to put on a beautiful costume from Egypt and perform on stage with your other beautiful female friends doing the same. I highly recommend this experience, especially if it feels like a bit of a stretch for you. Take a friend and have fun in a class and see what transpires within.
I know the holidays are coming up and are full of emotional triggers for many of us. I owe so much of me being able to stand in the power of my authenticity mostly to dance. when I first started I got in touch with the small box I had put myself in. Which made me very sad at first, but this awareness also allowed me to empower myself my tearing down the box and expanding my truth.
By turning on some music which makes my body want to move and by dancing in my front room with the large mirror there allows me to tap into childlike joy. It brings me back to when I was a girl and would pretend to preform for hours with a pretend microphone. It takes me to a world of belly dance where my fire within is activated and I am open to receive Divine Feminine energy to move and express myself in a way that feels good.
Sometimes I get triggered with an overwhelming emotion that comes up. That's when I dance with that part of me. That part of me that I may never have loved because someone told me it was 'bad'. Perhaps feelings of shame may come up around being a sexual being, because someone said it was 'bad' to have those feelings.
To be able to accept and love all the parts of you is what makes you most attractive. So by not talking about sensuality and sexuality on a blog about relationships and dating would be a disservice and would be represented as the elephant in the room.
I was abused as a little 3 yr old girl. I know that many of my readers have been as well because in this society child sexual abuse exists. In 1984 it was said to be that 1 in every 4 girls is sexually abused. Everyone in my nursing school put there hand up when asked.
I believe it is 1 in 3 now for girls and 1 in 4 for boys. If I can help just one person know more of the truth of who they really are through the power of dance, then I have been of service to my people.
This is what fulfills me the most with love. Being in service for others. Helping others get through experiences that I have been through and have gotten to the other side by flourishing and nurturing my blessed life. Understanding that the trials and tribulations give us character where we know our courage and our strengths, where we had not before.
Dance has helped me create a safe place for me to express and know who I really am. This is priceless.
I have come a long way baby! I find myself with a forgiving, peaceful and loving heart, open and expanded.
Divine Feminine energy is what will heal this world that we live in. The more people that can embrace this energy and hold it within there bodies, the more we will heal humanity with love and light. We will see the world from a global viewpoint. What energy I put out will come back to me tenfold and effects everyone in someway. We are all one, on this beautiful planet that we call Earth. We are all in this together.
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